Interesting thoughts

Hi Life! Dearest Angel and The Most Divine High and all the Saints, Thank You for Being with my journey and struggles. Yes, I do appreciate the help in various forms that came into and still working in our life, and thus really makes it manageable in the detail I can handle. Wow! This is how letting go like, because I think I hang on to my plans whereas there is a master plan that have all the signaturies approved it with. Calm down it is nothing of that sort in reality but how the flow of life carries us into where we are now, how a certain event unfold before us and changes everything of our perspective. In me it weaken or stretches it and strenghten it and molded it and made it more tough and flexible and maybe like a diamond I can say I will shine in my own way, after all the storm and flooding or anything in between. I will emerge in God's will and God's Blessing and all His Guidance that I will be want He wanted me to be as His good child be like. He will be protecting and guiding me in whatever He thinks best for me.

Sometimes I think that nagging is so bad, and I wish not to be in the position to do such act. I did try and probably did well not to do such nagging. But perhaps, if I just accept the fact that I was born to act in accordance to what I was shown by the precedence. Then perhaps some other thing will be change.... I cannot fathom how really mysterious life can be, but in my own tiny view, I saw that piece of light that said follow your heart, which I did, and just follow it... Then my heart is broken many times in all forms & pieces in sharp edges. But then, it still say follow your heart, just follow your heart, and I did it again... It is torn and bled and squash and crush so hard that maybe it died....

I was born with a mother that nags constantly or rewind it over and over again, but for a reason. My father seems to be getting used to the nag and worked it out if he did something bad - he get away with it, because she nags, he didn't accept the accusation. WHATEVER IT WAS! Well, in my early age I think I promise myself, if I will love, I will not nag, I will just love and accept him for whatever he is! Well, unless he otherwise not love me, so there is no point - because loving and being together means two way. How can you live with someone you love apparently but yet hurt each other by nagging or fighting which usually leads there anyway.

That explains the above thought.... there. So I just Love, and Love and Love and Love. meaning accepting changes and be flexible with each other, that is loving to me than resisting and irritating each other and almost like no way out.
So, while I am reading a book that allows me to read the thoughts i have within God, a new opening of strength and a new source of energy to recharge my inner being which is excellent and comforting.... I wish anyone out there will have all the same realization and awareness this book trying to convey... I haven't finish the book yet, but it doesn't mean this book is not worth reading it is exactly the best book I have and maybe I will be reading it over and over even if I finish it long ago.